Rage Face Day

  Today started out innocently enough...and has gone increasingly downhill. For starters I have a load of housework to do, including 3 loads of laundry, and dishes. But I started out paying bills and student loan stuff. It took 3 calls and about 30 minutes on the phone with the loan people to figure out everything I needed to do to pay off the loan. Dad and Jane helped by giving me the info for their bank account (which I wrote down for later use). When I finally had all the info to pay the loan online the internet died. Because the internet died I could not pay the loan, or call the online pharmacy (I didn't have a number written down for them), which I needed to do in order to make sure I have enough insulin to leave for my Aunt Suzy's funeral on Friday.

Why now? WHY!?!

 I thought to myself, "It's ok! I'll run to the pharmacy and get the checkie strips I need to pick up. By then the internet may be back on." Then I remembered that I needed to check my bank account online before going to buy the strips because they are expensive. Then I remembered that both of our cars are sitting on empty, because we are poor, because I don't have a job, because I foolishly went to vet school when I should have done something else with my life.

Stupid vet school. Stupid Diabetes. Stupid bills. Should have been a zookeeper.

  I finally calmed down and walked to the coffee shop down the hill so I could use their internet and soothe my frazzled nerves with an iced coffee. On the way I talked to my mom who said she would send us some extra funding (Thanks mom!!!). That helped. The coffee shop was out of iced coffee, but gave me an iced Americano instead, which sufficed. Things were looking up....

What is this feeling of foreboding?

  After I  unpacked my computer I rifled through my purse to find the information had written down to pay my loans. I went through the entire bag three times before realizing that I had left them at home in my other purse, because it was too small to lug my computer in.

 I think the planets must be misaligned or something. Is anyone else having a bad day? I hope not.

 P.S. Sorry if my use of rage faces offends anyone.